Patience

I know the Lord taught me patience and perseverance this year but now He is really asking me to walk out what I learned and it is HARD! Sadly, I was really prideful about leaving this year. I didn't want to be like the other past interns who didn't know where they were going so they just moved back home with family. Here Bryan and I are with less than 2 weeks and no jobs to speak of. I am not saying we are just being whimsical about it, Bryan has put out applications and resumes. Alas, the question that everyone is asking us is, "What are you going to do after this year is over?" I never thought I wouldn't have an answer!!! I say the polite thing, "We don't know but God knows and we know He has a plan!" I put a smile on my face and act like everything is okay.

But really! I am going to be honest here! Every day Bryan and I race to the phone and email to check. I have never checked phone messages and email messages with this much earnesty. I do believe that God has jobs for us picked out and that He will not leave us. But it is really difficult when you want ONE particular job and that place hasn't gotten back to you yet. I won't disclose everything considering we are really trying not to get our hopes up!

Through this whole thing of applying and waiting, I have fallen more in love with Bryan. I know why God picked Bryan for me. He knows how to be patient, whereas inwardly I am a mess. I remember back when Bryan and I were dating and I had a conversation with my dad about Bryan. I was worried about being so young and getting serious so fast. I remember my dad's words, "Guys like Bryan don't come around very often and you are going to miss out on a great man if you let this one go. He balances you out very well, Elise. Bryan is a rock and you will come to appreciate that." My dad is FULL of Godly wisdom and just real-life wisdom. At 19 when Bryan and I started dating, I didn't really even know myself very well so thinking about marriage was a little overwhelming. My dad's words calmed me and reassured me that God was handpicking the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I really have grown to appreciate the fact that Bryan is very even keel. I am not saying I will ever naturally be the way Bryan is but, God is working on me by having a real life example sleeping right next to me.

Anyways, if you are reading this and feel inclined to pray for us it would be helpful.

Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:33-34